Sunday, March 25, 2012

Raisinets

“Isaac stuffed too many Raisinets up his nose. I’m driving him to the ER now,” Jake’s wife Olivia said over the phone.

Jake had leaned his office chair backward to reach the phone on his desk. When Olivia spoke, he’d tipped over onto the floor. Not again! He thought.

Jake’s favorite candy was Raisinets, and there was always a box in the cupboard. Jake had thought his three year-old son would be safe from the candy if Jake stashed it somewhere Isaac wouldn’t be able to reach, but apparently not.

“I’ll meet you there,” he answered, picking himself up off the carpet.

There was no question as to whether or not he should leave work. He’d stayed late that day as it was. It was already past the time he should be home. Besides, it was Jake’s fault his son had started the habit, though his wife didn’t know it.

She’d been out that evening, leaving Jake alone with his son. After playing dinosaurs for hours, they’d eaten macaroni and cheese, with ice cream for dessert.

“Why you putting bugs in your ice keam?” Isaac had asked him as Jake sprinkled some Raisinets into his bowl.

“They make it chewier,” Jake replied.

Disgusted, Isaac scrunched his nose. “Where you get dem?”

Jake smiled. “These are special bugs that only comes from one place.” Reaching over, he pretended to pull a Raisinet out of his son’s nose. Then he ate it.

“Dey live in my nose!?”

“Yep, that’s their home.” Jake returned to his ice cream, hardly noticing Isaac watching him eat the “bugs”.

“Maybe they get homesick,” Isaac said in a small voice. Jake didn’t take the comment seriously. He thought it was just one of those things kids said that adults couldn’t understand.

Two weeks later, Jake had to work late. When he finally made it home, after Isaac was asleep, Olivia had the strangest story to tell.

“…and when I came over, the whole box of Raininets was spilled on the table! Then I saw that his nose was stretched weirdly. It took me ten minutes to get them out.”

Jake played the bemused father. “Huh, that’s strange. Maybe it’s one of those phases.”

The next day he’d talked to Isaac, making him promise to stop. But his talk hadn’t worked. As Jake drove to the hospital, he prayed his son would be alright. He also prayed Olivia hadn’t found out who’d given Isaac the bad habit.

When he arrived, Isaac was out of the hospital, and the Raisinets were out of his nose. Swooping up his son, Jake planted a kiss on the top of his head.

“Hey, Daddy.”

“Hey, buddy. What do I hear about you stuffing things up your nose? Didn’t we talk about that?”

“They were bugs, Dad. They wanted to go home. And I thought that if they could go home, you would come home, too.”

Jake couldn’t speak. Instead, he looked into his son’s liquid brown eyes, and then hugged him tightly.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Mark Doty Reading

The first thing that surprised me about the reading was how many people were there. It made my expectations a little higher than they had been for the other two writers that we listened to. I think he met those expectations pretty well. It was amazing how Doty could take some small detail that most other people would overlook and write a stimulating poem about it. The “Lullaloo” poem with the crickets/peepers/ whatever they were poem is an example of this.

It was interesting that he said he couldn’t read his poems from years ago because the rhythm and voice weren’t written the same way he writes today. I thought that once an author finally developed their own voice, it wouldn’t change much over time. But I guess it makes more sense for it to change, because most people themselves change greatly over time because of experiences they’ve had.

My favorite poem was the one about the crashing airplane. There was so much emotion, so much packed dread and anticipation. In that instant, I as a reader knew that Doty thought he was going to die then. Listening to that real experience makes me wonder how I would react if I got the chance to ponder my death before it happened. I also thought it amazing that he worked humor into his near-death-experience. And the strategy worked with the flow of the poem, because that’s the kind of person Doty was.

I liked how he gave a background story to a lot of his poems. The introduction to the poem about the goats was especially interesting. Doty was touched to learn that the kids in the first grade class had read his poem when they weren’t able to go to the goat farm. Stories like that helped me as a listener to delve more deeply into the poems themselves.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Fear Itself

My phone beeped as Kat hung up on me. Well that was rude. And what did she mean by “something terribly wrong”? I started for my car automatically, but then realized I wouldn’t need it. I couldn’t drive to the place, I had to walk. Buttoning my coat, I took a few paces toward the trees at the edge of the property, then turned back and grabbed a crow bar from the trunk of the car. I’d no idea what was going on, so I’d at least try to be prepared.

Probably the only reason I thought of grabbing a weapon was that I’d seen too many movies where people stupidly walk into a suspicious situation empty handed and then end up in the back of a white van with their hands tied. The claw-like branches of the trees in the misty dusk did give my backyard a horror movie-feel to it.

After I located the hiking path, I walked along the smooth dirt while texting my parents. I told them I was going for a walk and I might not be back by the time they got home. I texted my brother Justin, too, saying if I wasn’t back around ten-ish to look for me at the Forsythia Fort. He was the only one in the family who knew where that was.

After seeing my breath puff out in little clouds and mix with the damp mist for a few minutes, I started to jog. No one was around to question a teenager in a puffy coat running around with a crowbar, and it was cold, so why not? I had about a mile to go to reach the place. As it got darker and the house lights faded, I realized what an idiot I was for not thinking to bring a flashlight. Then I thought maybe that wasn’t so bad, as it would be harder on someone if they were following me.

I halted, listening for any footsteps that would alert me if I was being tailed. There were none, obviously. I was taking this situation way more seriously than it should be taken. Kat and Jenna weren’t drug addicts, they didn’t get drunk, they didn’t have any creepy friends that I knew about, and their parents weren’t abusive. They weren’t normal – Kat had an unnatural obsession for chocolate tootsie roll pops, and Jenna was always swinging her foot in rhythm as if she wanted to dance to her own life’s soundtrack – but those weren’t exactly criminal tendencies. The only thing we ever did that was against the law was say that we were under thirteen when buying movie tickets. They were cheaper that way. And we couldn’t even do that anymore, because we looked too old.

I walked on, trying not to trip on tufts of half-dead grass, protruding rocks, or tree roots that became more frequent the deeper into the trees I went. It was too dark to run anymore, as I neared the hideout, the Forsythia Fort, and I wanted to be quiet. Giving my position away too early could be disastrous. There was no telling who might be keeping watch.

I could just make out a dark blob up ahead where the Forsythia bushes and tree trunks made a thick ring. In the center was where we would always meet when we were little. We would pretend we were runaway orphans, using grass seed and berries mixed together as “bread”. Water with flower petals in a cracked earthen jar was “soup”, and our beds were piles of dried pine needles. That was before we got to be boring teenagers. Once we reached middle school, the only thing we did was sit and talk.

I reached the edge of the bushes, peering into the branches that were still covered with wilted leaves. I couldn’t detect any sound or light coming from inside. I stood still, keeping my breathing quiet while considering my options. I could a) venture inside, making lots of noise and putting myself into a vulnerable position. b) call out, revealing my presence to possible threats. c) try to find a tree to climb and look down into the space. Maybe I would see something better that way. Or I could d) stand there debating all night and freeze to death. I chose e) Scream like a tortured soul in Hell because something wet just touched my hand.

“AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!”

If I’d had to use the bathroom, I would have done it right then. My crowbar whipped around as I spun, but it hit only air.

“Chrissy? Is that you?” Jenna called, from inside the bushes. She sounded more squeaky than usual.

“What are you screaming about? You scared me to death.” From the husky tone of her voice, I could tell Kat had been crying. “I already have enough to be scared about as it is. Get in here so we can talk.”

I about melted into a puddle of relief as I heard the twins and saw the vague outline of Jen’s French poodle Flufflepuff wagging her tail next to me. When the dog licked my hand again, I pet her on the head instead of trying to brain her.

As I struggled through the clinging branches of the bush, the relief was ripped away, replaced by a growing resentment and suspicion.

“Okay,” I said once I reached the clearing. “What was so important that you had to make me come out here in the dark and freezing cold to hear it?”

I looked back and forth between the two almost-identical figures huddled together on the ground. Neither was wearing a coat. At first I couldn’t tell who was who, but then I made out Jenna’s slippered foot twitching in the air. It moved faster than usual.

Jenna looked at Kat, who sat very still, hugging her knees.

“What happened was - ” Kat began, but her voice broke. She tried again. “I mean, I was kind of – Well, it was an - ” Burying her face in her arms, she started to sob. “You tell her! I c-can’t get it out.”

I started to roll my tongue around my mouth, a habit I had when I got nervous. Kat was always saying something. It was usually getting her to shut up that was the problem. Too much sugar from those tootsie roll pops, probably.

Her sister took a deep breath. “What she’s trying to say is, sheaccidentallyburntthehousedownwhenshetriedtotoastabagel.”

“The stupid fire extinguisher wouldn’t work,” Kat mumbled through her sweater. “Now it’s gone…all gone…”

“Mom and Dad went away for the weekend,” Jenna added. Her foot bounced higher than ever. “I don’t think they know yet.”

I looked at the two shivering, frazzled girls on the ground in front of me. Then I looked at my hand, which still gripped my weapon. A laugh escaped me before I could swallow it back.

“What part of that is funny to you?” Kat demanded.

“Nothing! I’m sorry, it’s just that I was expecting – never mind.” I was just a 21st century girl with an overdose of imagination.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Sombrero

Sequins reflect the sun, throwing fairy lights around the room

Pristine showy whiteness

Arched brim, like a cat stretching to show off

Glinting silver stitching

Round as the full moon

It almost swallows my head when I put it on, because it’s so large.

When I touch it, it feels fuzzy, like moss.

It hangs over my bed as a reminder of Mexico.

Wearing it expresses my crazy side that isn’t often apparent.

Smudges of dirt are easy to see, but equally easy to rub off.